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So I activated my ask fm you also want to activate uh?????! I tweeeeted abt blog then you just had to put up a new blog post uh???????? Seriously boy. Damn glad that we are over. Yes silent break but whatever sia give up on whatever you've done all these while. Waited for nothing and I'm so dumb to wait HAH

Why

Hahahahahaha it seems like we're not meant to meet each other. You are busy and hah busy with your soccer stuffs and all and idk man. Hahahahaha it's just so funny.. I can't..... 😢😢  yep I wanted to meet you last Sunday after the Jap party, after your soccer but haha no you can't make it. Okay fine. Was hoping to meet you either on tues or wed since I'm in the morning shift but nope you didn't mention anythingg. & yep I took the initiative to tell you my results without you asking me but hahaha for you, I need to ask and whaaaat you just said oh sorry forgot to tell. Hahahahaha so fuunny. And this weekend. Hais YOU told me that you are gonna confirm helped out with kendarat on sat and I told myself wth you told me sat we are gonna meet. So you expect me to do kendarat with you la on sat after me working 5days straight!!!!! Ouch. I was really looking forward to Saturday because I wanna meet you but hahahaahhahaah 😂😂 okay fine I asked Faizah and Herdy all out and okay fine they are not free so yep I helped out with kendarat because I was hoping to meet you there. Okay fine. Then what in the morning just now you are like "what? I thought you didn't want that's why I never go. It's so far for you. You are not tired meh?" WOW WOW WOW! Funny huh huh huh!!!!!! 😂😂😂  okay fine like duh la i was so pissed! Whatever sia I'm so tired already. Tired of hoping. Tired of waiting. IDK I really dunno what to do. Idk what's our relationship now. I mean seriously. There's still no explanation as to what happened all these while. And yep here I am laughing to myself telling myself how stupid I am. Waiting for a guy who's not...... Idk. Yep I know he love soccer. Yes I think I am being so understanding uh like seriously. I'm so tired already. Why am I so foolish?? Why???? Why??? What am I waiting for??????? 😢😪😥

17th 🍰

Oh well yeap 21st September. Yep my birthday. Yep not important tho. I know. 😔  guess what have I been doing!!!!!!!   I mean like literally. It's so sad. Just went to town with mum for a while and yep thought of having lunch with Omar since tmr we are not able to meet but ha ha ha too late 😔  then I went back home and lepak. Lepak till now. & people wished me, telling me to enjoy my day, have fun and shingzzz and I'm like 'how to have fun alone? How to enjoy alone when no one is free to celebrate your birthday with you?' 😢  sad huh. Life. This is my life. I mean..... Hais I'm sad. Celebrating with the wolves next week instead of tmr cos I thought of going out with Omar tmr but hey there's jap party with le cousins! 🎉🎊🎈🎁  so yep idk. I mean I don't wanna make any plans. I'm tired. 😪  I knew my birthday this year is gonna be like any normal day. Well in fact every year it is gonna be like this. Hah not surprised. I mean idk why do I even bother to give people birthday present and surprised them for their birthday when what I get in return for my birthday is just normal sad boring day 😢😢  and my stupid eyes just can't stop tearing up since the ytd night. Gosh!!!!!!! 😭😭😭😭 

💔

Y'know it's sad and it really hurts when people that mean the most, hurt the worst. I mean look, Omar whom really mean the most to me hahahaha actually unfollowed me on twitter again and what back to what had happened before? Not talking to each other again? Oh so now what's the reason behind it? I'm tired. I really am. I'm giving up. I shouldn't have go on and talk to him when he was starting a conversation with me back then. I regretted. 😢  What kind of relationship only communicate thru fb chat? No message, no whatsapp, no call. So I really think that we are not in a relationship huh. So we are just friends huh? I mean look, we didn't really open up to each other. Just like what happened last year. I still have no idea why you suddenly stopped talking to me and being an asshole(well that's what you called yourself), you didn't even bother and take your own initiative and tell me why, what's wrong, what happened back then & what you suddenly chatted with me asking me how's life and you are sorry. Sorry without explaining to me why. Why why why!!!!!!!! 😢😔 & then for the past few months ever since your birthday everything seems to be normal, it's like as though nothing had happened huh? yep but I'm still wondering, I'm still curious but I pretend. I pretend nothing had happened back then. 😔  Y'know I really wanna celebrate my birthday with you. Spending my day with you. You've never done so. Last year everything was sucked up because of you, because you ignored me. This year, yes I understand that your sister is coming back. I totally do that's the reason why you can't celebrate with me but... Just a short meet up would mean a lot to me. 

BUT HAIS RINA FORGET IT!!!!! 

What a surprised me is that you literally UNFOLLOWED me on twitter right after the day I said I was sad and the reason may or may not be you. This makes me even more sad and idk what to do now. Whether or not to chat with you when you are online or just shut myself and keep quiet. like wts c'mon I was feeling super down on that day and you just had to ask me that qn????? SERIOUSLY?!?! Hais. I shouldn't have talked to you. I regretted. I'm gonna forget everything. Well as much as I could. As for now really, Goodbye 👋

Friends? HAH

Friends.

Yep I'm just like that nemo up there. Loner. I don't have much friends. I don't have any close friends. I don't have any bestfriends. I don't have any friends whom I can share everything. I don't have any friends whom I can really have fun and joke ard with. I don't have any friends whom understand me. I don't have any friends to cry on, to lend me their ears/shoulder. I'm such a loner. 

Yep tell me I have a boyfriend but no I still have a feeling that we are just friends. I mean c'mon if Omar is really my boyfriend then..... HAH seriously. I'm sad.  I feel so lonely at times when I don't have anyone to go out with or whenever I see pictures o my friends with their bestfriends or their boyfriend/girlfriend. Yep I'm happy for them but at the same time deep down I'm sad. I really am 😔😢  I envy those people whom always hang out with their close friends like just chill, hang out, play soccer, play games, shopping, makan all because I don't have any friends to do that with. & that's the reason why. Why I am sad. I really feel so.....lonely. No one have time for me. I'm just like an option to them. I don't feel like  needed. I feel so useless. & I'm really really sad. :( :'(

😢😭

Y'know it's sad when hais idk I'm just feeling so sad now. Yep have been feeling down since like Wednesday. Why? Idky. There's just so many things in my mind. Idk 😢 I wanna go out but I don't have any close friends to go out with. No one is free to go out with me. I am totally enjoying my holiday. Seriously. It's gonna be three weeks of holiday and hahahahahaha I am enjoying it. Doing nothing. Stay at home. Watch tv. Going out alone & sometimes to the same old boring place over and over again. TOTALLY ENJOYING IT :(  

I really wanna go somewhere this holiday. I mean c'mon it's HOLIDAY!!!!!!! & I have freaking 4 weeks of holiday since there's 3 weeks attachment & whuuuuut I'm wasting 3weeks of holiday doing nothing :(  LIFE. OH HOW SAD. 

My plan to go to the zoo, ice skating all GONE since hahahahahahaha I've totally wasted like almost 3weeks of my holiday. Hais I'm so sad. I really am. I'm disappointed. No one know how I feel. I feel so.....lonely 😔😢

stress messssss

sigh :/

waaasssssuuuup people
welll welll
hows youuuuuuuu? okay fine goood

sigh have beeen going back to school for the past few days for dnt
gaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah, so frustrating.
seriously when am i gonna get my materials??? can the office sign the papers quickly
so not on time and you want your students to hand in homework on time and shingzzz -.-
NONSENSE.
& now everything's delayed.
going back to school almost EVERYDAY last week and this weeek.
WOW HOLIDAY HUHHHHH?
next week also confirm need to come back, & i've not started revision PROPERLY!!!!!
DEAD DEAD DEAD
gaaaaaaaaaaaah, this is just so frustrating.
SCHOOL ALL THE WAY.
sigh i am so worried, yes worried about my studies but why am i not studying?????
i want to but i cant. sighhhhh :(
very very very very saddening :(

weeekend at farah's houseeee !
hopefully i can really study there, with her around insyallah can :)
i really wish that we were both in the same school.
well sad mad we are not
okayyyyyyyy that's it mittttttttttt

bad holiday?

sigh, see that phone there? yeaaaaaaaaa i lost it when i was at vietnam
i have no idea how i freaking lost this phone.
it's like BOMB LOST. sighhhh
well like someone said, setiap perkara yang berlaku pasti ada hikmahnya ;)
& yes i do believe it happened for a reason
luckily i took out my sim card !!!! if nottttttt idk .............
OKAY moving onnnnnnnnnnn ~~~~


the trip wassssssn't that good though
i thought it's gonnna be like someone gonna bring us around vietnam and shingzz but nope i was wrong
but yea a good experience.
we rode on this trishaw and yea the drivers were friendly
butttttttttt there's a problem after everything which reaallly spoil everyone's mood
sighhhhhhhhhhh, one thing after another
bad trip though

okay that's it, gooooooodnight !

YEAAAAAAAAAAAAY !

see those smiles? yes, we were having lots of fun back then :)
WELL GUESS WHAT !
at least o level malay is OVER, yes OVER !!!!!!!!!!!
but sigh it's kinda tricky though and seriously who the hell write TERCEPAT????????
gah, stupid, silly mistake !!!!!!!!!
whatever it is, im not gonna think about it.

GUESS WHAT PEOPLE!!!
YES IM OFF TO VIETNAM TMR !!!!!!
YEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY !!!!!!!!!
finally after a weeeeeeek of school during the holidays, im going on a holiday !!!
well, not gonna think about my studies for the next 3 days
gonna start proper study next weeek, YES I MUST !
gonna have study group with friends and gonna follow my time-table. insyallah
OH and to reyna who's going back to phillipine, have a safe journey !
so nowwwwww let's go to beddieeeeeee bed.

Malay O's

welllllll hellloooooooo again !
yeaaaaa malay O levels tmr. sigh
time flies reaaaaally fast. and it's already our mt o levels
idk why but im not confident with tmr's paper. WHY?!?!?!?
sigh. im feeeling so nervous. it's like as though i am not prepared for the paper
when i've been studying since what thursday? :(
what's this??????
just cant wait to get this over and done with!
seriously it's only MALAY o level and im already feeeling like this.
sighhhhhhhhhhhh :/

Over.

soooooo mye's results wereeeee bad.
yes bad. really gotta buck up
well idk why but hey im trying okay it's just that idk why i can still fail
even dad and ms raine said that i am studying but they also dunno how come i can still fail
something serious. maybe i need to change my study technique? hmm idk :/
well whatever it is i gotta do well for my prelims.
like what i promised them. at least a pass for all except for amaths. teeeeee
really no hohpe for amaths .


well welllllllll.
finally had a daaaaaaay out faizah, mira, fee and some of the 2/3 boys.
everything's change though
great time spent with them eventhough .....
reaaally miss having faizah and mira in aes
lonely without them. sigh
woooooooooooookaaaay done-oooo

ALIVE !

yes yes, i am gonna make this blogggie blog be baccccccccck ALIVE
teeeeeeheeeee.
well it's quite a long time since i last blog.
since what? october 2011? hahahah
well guess i was tooo lazy to blog that time
but nowwwwwwww yea i will try to blog if i've got the time
jengjenggggggggggg

misses .

i miss them

fun fun fun

teehee , so yeap .
here we gooo again ~
went uss with the girls , sadly ryan and banana didnt join though

hadddddd fuuuuuuuuun !
click click click , pictures taken
went from morning all the wayyyy till errrr evening
maaan , wanted to go for the haloweeen horror night but it was expensive though

next , swimming carnival was errrr ok yea .
nothing interesting happeneddd unlike last year .

up uppppppp , tmr = st gabriel's flag day .
meeeeeehhhh , doante donation donate donation

ps: waitinggggggg

HURRAAAAAY ~

HURRAAAAAAAYYY !
EXAM'S OVER !!!
unfortunately results will be out tmr , soooooo yea

aniwaessss , cambodia cambodia cambodia .
not really looking forward to it though
like yeaaaa , hah .
so now i'm like doing DNT !!!!!!!!!
gaaaah , pissing me off . hahahahaa
i dont even know what to do and this is like what 70% of our marks
hahahahahahha , well too much distraction huh
rab told me about her F&N lifestory , funnnyyyyyy xD
well instead of doing dnt , i am listening to it . hahah
ok bye

thanks :)

Thanks to them who celebrated my birthday
appreciate it though
abduction wassss superr goooood ! hahahha , it was awesomeeee !
& also johnny english was super hilarious ! hahaha , funny movieeee
well , today im happy though.
idk why , hahah.
talking to farid reminds me of syazwan. hah , that guy -.-
ohhhhhhh welllll !
exams next weeeeeek ! english paperrrrr , im not ready though
well, beeen to the library for almost everyday to studyy
productive enough !
andddddddd noooowww , idk what to say.
home alone at home , sadded :(

gaaaaaaah , irritated

OMG , THIS GUY IS SERIOUSLY DAMN IRRITATING LA !
why the hell is he in my group for the cambodia thing?
omggggggggg !!! feeel like punching him in the face
seriouslyy , why do you wanna know more about me ?
like, why do you even care ?!
you are super irritating , called me A LOT of times
gaaaaaaaaaaaahh , frustrated , angry !
For once pleasee laaaaaaa :@

sad .

thanks aidah , you are the one who understand me .
thanks for lending me your ear.<3
we wil be there for each other yea :')

birthday?

yes , i turned 15 yesterday.
and guess how i spent my birthday?
yeaaa , study -.- seriously , STUDY ! that's sooo interesting.
the worst birthdaaaay ever and yeaap i knew it's gonna happen this year.
other people celebrate it like seriously celebrate it whereas for me?
hah. yeaaa , lots of friends .
gaaaah , and yes ! syaqilah's seriously being a dfsiugqkl at madrasah.
like serious shit uhhh she !
i know la that time bile jln raya aku tk layan kau instead aku layan aidah and harita.
yeaa so, tk boleh ke? it's damn hard to meet both of them .
and yea , thanks for saying it STRAIGHT into my face .
what kind of friend are youu ?
seriously , after listening the story from adi and harita i seriously couldnt believe
that im your friend. tu pasal uh ramai orang tk suke kau !
and yeaa , i think the purpose of me going madrasah today was because i wanna meet safiy and talk to him. what a great friend he is.
sorry im not the right person for you to talk to :(
oh yeaaa , he knows omaryy ! hehehe :>
talking about omaryyy , yess i miss him :(
he didnt wish me but yeaa i understand though .
november please come faster .